Living as i like it....

Sunday, June 6, 2010

self-doubt...
am i qualified to hang around here?
to hang on?

~5:57 AM

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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Got a P for my assignment....
my heart literally hurts.... like physical pain ouch...
i think im not even thinking about it... but it just hurts...
i wonder if it's the grade or there's something wrong with me....
x.x

The curse of aging.

~7:27 PM

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Monday, April 19, 2010

what is real then, if the world is just a figment of your imagination
reality as it seems, is just an our individual perception.
Yet, if it were subjective.
The feelings and emotions we feel would be subjective too ?
odd....

Hope you recover from ur blues soon....

~11:47 PM

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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

i seriously wonder if i can survive till the end of the week.
& he's fucking not making things easy for me.
its 10 plus pm n u die die gotta wash clothes
why dont u go n die?
and u still say im a freak?
i think u are one.

Fucker if u are that bored, get back to s'pore.
Dont come and mess up my life
it was fine before u came over.
and it will be after ur gone.

Keeping my temper is difficult since i'm having violent images.
Pissed.

i guess we cant have a day of peace tgt.
it aint possible.
sorry but im relinquishing my responsibilities
as soon as im able, i want nth to do with u.

~8:00 PM

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Thursday, February 25, 2010

Hmm.. here i am back again in the outback.....

not too bad for the first day since i realize my sack of rice has been infested with insects & maggots... haiz.... the problems of non-occupation.

Thanks to Karen, Jowena, HT,YJ, JP, RM, JH, WY, Crawford, Hulk, my mom & sis for sending me off... it may not mean much to you but it means alot to me...

To the others, thanks for the wishes (although you wont be reading this heh heh)

So long my friends..... until the next time we meet again.... :)
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& i wanna thank you: I wanna thank you for being by my side, holding your tears back while you watch me cry. It isn't easy for you, just as it is for me. I thank you for your support & encouragement.

~10:11 PM

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Wednesday, February 17, 2010

A twinkling of an eye and the third day of New Year is gone.
*poof*
what's left is the dread of knowing that the time for fun, comfort, friendship, kinship and love is drawing to an end.
1 week to be exact.

I dread to head back to the dungeon;
alone, defenseless.
but things have to be done.

i knew this would happen, but i didn't expect leaving this place to be harder than the first time.
My heart aches at the thought of it.
My stomach churn at the sound of it.
My eyes wince at the sight of it.

Ah....
once again i have to summon the strength and swallow down the bitterness
i never knew what i saw as a dream would end up so .....
pointless... upsetting.

1 week.

~1:12 AM

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Sunday, February 7, 2010

I wished you have more confidence in yourself. That's my wish had i seen the wishing star that night.

I wanna do well in my studies. That will be resolution if i had one this year.

but i don't....

~10:31 PM

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